Day 4

Arghh..Today got thrown off when I went to take a nap at 10:00am. The next time I opened my eyes it was 4:00pm!!! And now it's 5:00am and I leave on a flight in a few hours.

I don't think the way the experiment is constructed now will yield the results I'm looking for. I'll probably get a few interesting insights every day and be more relaxed. However, I feel that there is more potential to the technique and I won't be satisfied until I explore it.

I think one thing that slows me down is that I really only meditate for any length of time when I'm on a subway and cut off from the world. When I'm at home, as soon as I sit down to meditate a flurry of thoughts come to mind. I can let go of them, but it only takes one really convincing "Damn. I forgot to do that" before I run to the computer and jump into action.

One thing that I learned from the meditation retreat is that 95% of the tasks that seem urgent, aren't really that important the next day. During the 10 days of silence we weren't allowed to journal or communicate with anyone. this was great because if I had a journal I would have started making to dos and started planning them. It's sort of like letting a decision wait until the next day. Our thoughts make us think that they're reality, when they're not.

When reading a book, I heard a person talk about someone who had a normal 9-5 job and then meditated for 8 hours every night. For some reason, this seemed really inspiring to me. What stops me from doing it is that since the business isn't making money, I feel like I have to devote all my time to getting it sustainable before allowing myself to rest. We have a lot of debt now.

Alright. Here's what I'll do. I'll start off with 2 hours of sitting meditation. 1 hour in the morning and 1 hour in the evening. - This does not include the subway!!!!!!

I'll start right now!!!! I'll meditate for the next 1.25 hours until my alarm clock rings.